We arrived in Athens late on Wednesday evening, and having met up with Mark Cockbain on the flight from Luton, we all decided to garb a taxi to the Hotel. Mark was a great help with very useful insights from his four previous successful races.
Thursday was registration day, and apart from a walk along the beach and a great many laughs with Rory & Caz, I just rested and relaxed. The London hotel was the HQ for the Spartathalon, and outside of the Olympics, I have never seen a fitter, leaner of meaner set of athletes in my life, all nationalities, all shapes and sizes, all brimming with smiles and good humour. The veterans of the race were just a different breed all together, these stood out immediately, and I questioned myself seriously about whether I was qualified to take this race on.
I caught Rory's eye across the room where he was standing with Caz, and we both raised an eyebrow, and nodded, these were the "Big boys" and I was about to try and play on their playing field! Now don't mistake that comment as negative self talk, because when you looked at some of these guys, you just knew that they had earned their physiques the hard way. They were very lean, very strong, and with muscle definition in the lower half of their bodies that had been developed over years of endurance conditioning and training, then there was me!
In January 2006 I couldn't run 5 miles around Wetherby with my local running club without stopping, and although I had subsequently trained hard by my standards and succeeded in competeing the 150 mile multi-stage Marathon des Sables in 2007 and Namibian Desert 75 mile single stage Ultra in April 2008, I was entering a different league. Rory had already said to me that he wouldn't even attempt this race, and further lifted my spirits by reading a text that Mimi Anderson (Mimi recently set a new record over Lands End to John O'Groates) had sent saying "Hat's off and good luck to anyone who even attempts Spartathlon" as it was too tough for her!
So registration completed, medical check concluded, and it was off to spend the rest of the day trying to find a car hire company that had fuel and would hire us a car for Caz & Rory to drive. There was a customs strike and no fuel was being delivered. In a bizare experience, on wednesday evening as we went in search of food, we walked past 50 cars queuing at a filling station, and Rory stopped to ask a driver what was going on, he managed to pick one that spoke perfect English, who explained there was no idea how long the strike would last, we quietly started panicking! Anyway, luckily we found one and chilled out for the rest of the day. We woke at 04:45 and began packing the crew car and joined the rest of the competitors and the bus convoy to the foot of the Acropolis where Rory made sure I loosened up and stretched, before meeting some of the other UK contingent.
The race started at 07:00 sharp, and I adapted my approach to the first 50 miles after having listened to Mark's advice, so I tagged into the last 30 runners and sat in the middle of the pack with the aim of just reaching the checkpoints inside the cut offs. After the descent from the Acropolis, there was a steady couple of miles through the dense rush hour traffic, choking fumes and heat were already making things interesting, and after a 5mile climb we reached the main arterial route where we ran along the hard shoulder as the sun began to heat the day. I was maintaining a steady pace just under 10 min/ miles as we climbed, and I reached the Marathon stage in 4h 24min, feeling strong and comfortable, probably the last time I can say that was the case. This picture was taken just prior to the CP which I ran straight through, looking to maintain the buffer of time I had developed.
I can safely say, that had I known that at the time I would have forced myself to eat and take energy at each checkpoint from here on, but the Sparatathlon strategy is to make the first 50 miles as difficult as possible for the runners. No runners are allowed any assistance from their support crew, if they have one, until after the 50 mile checkpoint at Corinth. Rory and Caz were giving me fantastic verbal support, and I smiled and laughed everytime I saw the at the side of the road. Caz was having great fun interving Rory on the DVD to record my progress so far.
This is a deliberate strategy of the Spartathalon, which means that you can only take on board energy in the form of what is available at the check points. To this point I had tried eating the unripe green bananas, dried apple, dry biscuits, and even worse, dry Jacobs crackers with honey drizzled over them! I can't think of anything more difficult to swallow whilst running in 30c heat, they just clog up your mouth. So I had stuck to NUUN tablets to replace salts and minerals, and just taken water on board.
When I hit it, I knew I had left energy replacement too late! I hit the wall hard at 31 miles! Rory commented to Caz, that I was loosing pace as I passed the race pace setter who had succumbed at the side of the road, pictured here..lol (click to enlarge.
I only had electrolyte in the bottle so I rinsed my mouth out and spat it out. I sipped the stuff until the next checkpoint, where I emptied it out, refilled my bottle with water, drank some warm coke that was on offer at the checkpoint and pushed on, only to be violently sick again at 38 miles and reduced to a walk for a bit.
I witnessed another runner from Switzerland, with similar symptoms and patted him on the shoulder as he stood up after retching at the road side, we smiled and said "Corinth", in recognition of our resolve to reach the 50 mile cut off in time, but the heat, terrain and pace was taking its toll, and I for one was starting to leave the checkpoints with no buffer of time, and the deadline looming to reach the next one in time.
It was here that I noticed the "Bus" for the first time, and 10 disqualified or retired runners sitting dejectedly along side it as it waited to collect more ex-Spartathletes as they failed to make the cutoff times. There were tears, there were faces full of disbelief that months of training and dreams of reaching Sparta had ended there at the side of the road, and for some there was a consoling hug from a crew member as they finally relaxed their pride and conceded a tearful defeat.
I accepted this wake up call, and tried to increase my pace, my stomach was cramping, and I tried to ignore it and pushed on, but you know how that goes in life don't you!.
Rory and Caz were delivery plenty of encouragement and urging me on. Unknown to me Rory had commented to Caz that he felt my pace was dropping too far for me to pick it up he was about to be proven right.
After the wake up call I lifted the pace but as I rounded a bend in the road I saw the climb ahead, and I knew I had spoken too soon. This was where the failure monsters raised their heads.
I saw a runner in front of me reach a junction and what was obviously one of her crew members passed he a bottle from the window of their vehicle as they passed, within seconds there was a race official in a car that had been following the runners, pulling their car to the side of the road, and gesticulating animatedly as only the Greeks can, and pointing to the runner and with a level hand, making a cutting action indicating "out" or "disqualified" I ran on leaving them with raised voices, the rules are the rules!
The heat of the day was in full on mode by now, and after climbing for ever there was a brief respite as I coasted downhill on very tired quadriceps, Rory shouted encouragement and took this picture, (click to get the full view)
and Caz waited nearby soaking up the atmosphere of the race as she waited to cheer me on. They never missed an opportunity to lift me, and the others that they recognized, they were a fantastic support crew and I couldn't imagine what it would have been like without them.
The checkpoints were every 4km or so now, and as I scrapped into checkpoint 20 I was informed that I was past the cutoff time, I argued that I could still make Corinth ( 2 checkpoints away) before it closed and basically didn't wait for a response, I just grabbed a cup of water and kept running. I caught a smile from Rory and Caz, at the bare faced cheek I had displayed, but I took very little comfort from the fact that I was still in but now facing no margin for error, and at Corinth they would ruthless!
The near miss galvanized me once more,and I resolved to reach Corinth in time. But as I said before, when we make a decision, sometimes life with throw in a challenge, almost as if to test you are serious, and as I cut through an underpass, and up what appeared to be a slip road, I found myself facing a bitch of a climb upwards for about a 1.5 miles, and I knew in my heart my race was over. I gave it one last valiant effort, only to watch my pulse rise to 172, unsustainable over the distance and I knew that even if I forced myself I would need so much time to recover at Corinth, that I would again be behind the timed cut-offs.
Out of time, and 1km before the CP21 I phoned Rory and Caz from my mobile to let them know I was withdrawing. I needed a couple of minutes to get my thoughts together before I reached them.
You know... I learned some valuable lessons in endurance running and in life during this challenge to run the Spartathalon in footsteps of Pheidipides.
I've learned that it is important to have a dream that stirs your soul.
I have learned that you need to be able to balance the important aspects of your life, your vocation, your family, your relationships and time with your friends, your training and your rest, and not to be too focused on any one part, whilst you chase your dream.
Most importantly you must respect the opinions of those who mean the most to you in life, and when they ask you to balance your time... do it!.
You need to share your dream with those closest to you, who will not judge you, but will support you... even if they can't understand your reasons for chasing your dream, and don't be afraid to ask for their help, if you show them respect and care for their opinions they will help you to succeed because they in turn will respect you.
As the final steps of my race were taking me into the checkpoint where I met Caz and Rory, I put the biggest smile on my face and thanked them for being there for me. They were concerned that I would be like a bear with a sore arse! disapointed, annoyed, even angry that I had fallen so short of my goal... that was the old Andy!
I told them that I was done... I was withdrawing... my challenge had ended, but it wasn't over, what I learned will ensure I return better prepared next year. I was holding my head up high, and proud of our team effort that got me this far.
I want to leave you all with one final thought...
In our journeys through life as we chase our dreams, whatever those dreams are, we will all face difficulties.
We will make choices that lead us down the wrong paths; we will make mistakes that will take us years to rectify, in our careers, in our relationships, and in our health.
We will learn lessons, and improve, and we will fail to learn the lessons that life tries to teach us and we will pay the penalties, and then be forced later in life to re-learn those lessons again. But you can do it... you can learn those lessons... and you can reap the rewards and achieve the dreams you are chasing for yourself.
The force that drives you forward through adversity in all it's forms will be the power of your dream, the vision you hold for what ever it is that you want to achieve with your life.
I have my dream to succeed in arriving on foot in Sparta still intact... to run in the footsteps of Pheidipides, it will just have to be after I learn and practice the lessons this attempt has taught me.
Rory my friend and endurance mentor has his dreams, Caz my wife and best friend has her dreams, and we will all help each other to achieve them where ever we can, but remember this when you are deep in the struggle to achieve your dreams... it's what I told Rory & Caz as I approached them in the final steps I took...
There is no tragedy in having failed to achieve your dream .
There is only tragedy in having no dream to reach for in the first place...
Failure is never important, unless it's the last time you are ever going to try!
It is only life teaching you a lesson that needs to be learned.
I trust I will see you all soon, and you'll certainly find me here again next year!